Dates are kewl..

[sistercarrion]

Tuesday was fab.. we decided we'd have a 'proper' date :) and we told ourselves we'd have to behave.. and we did.. sort of ;) At least while we were out anyway.. hehehe.. As i was skint, Jason paid for it all.. bless him to bits.. made me feel like a bad scav.. But he didn't seem to mind. Nonetheless.. i hate feeling like i'm taking advantage. We had a few drinkies in the Swan.. which went straight to my head, as i'd had nothing to eat all day again.. then on to a seafood restaurant opposite the old Bar 1-11. Our waiter looked like the guy off League of Gentlemen who ran corner shops!! Had Sea bass and stuffs.. gorge food.. absolutly full. Then Jase surprised me again by getting champers as take out.. Then a lengthy taxi ride to deepest Widnes.. and then ahem \snip\ Censored i'm afraid.. but we had fun.. ;)
Bit hungover the next day.. feeling a bit battered and fragile in more ways than one..
I'm enjoying what we're doing.. it's all chilled and groovy, which is exactly what i need. I still have problems believing him when he flatters me.. self hatred is a hard thing to get round...

Wednesday..
was a non event.. fell asleep on the couch to be woken by advent of air strikes on telly at 2.45am.. watched it on and off all day.. before the Avon lady called round to sign me up for Avon. Oh yeah.. me now a Avon lady.. hahaha.. then work.. No sign of Yazz and his promised 15 pounds.. grrr.. quelle surprise.. and work have fucked up my pay again..

Talking to a close friend tomorrow... so need to be there for them... just can't find the right words... hopefully i'll find them..

Then ritual and Midian.. yey! At last.. long wait this time round...

carrion
'You don't want to hurt me...

I'm aware I'm tearing you asunder,
There is thunder in our hearts..
-Running up that Hill- Kate Bush

(been listening a lot to Kate the last coupla days)

Comments

[ikkleruby.livejournal.com]

It sounds like you've got the kinda thing goin that I wish i could have right now! Its the best place to be where relationships are concerned :)

[sistercarrion.livejournal.com]

Yeah, it's kewl..he's ace
His head's very much wired for rudey things the same as me.. which is a major plus point!! Plus he don't mind me snogging and stuffs elsewhere at the mo.. hence me snogging someone v.pretty last night *blush*..